Again i ask how do i get my wife back?

ok again i am a 21yr old male united sated army infantry soldier i cheated on my wife for the 3rd time in 9 years yes i known her since i was 12 but i told her the truth and nw she wants a divorce. i need to know how to get her back please give me some adivce not criticise me please i cried and threw up i know it doesnt sond right but honestly i was drunk no excuse but thats the truth i asked her to g to conseling and she said no she deserves better wich she does but i want to be that guy that she deserves but i am always out of the country for a year 15 months or 10 months at a time and now i am currently in korea and they cant come how do i convince her i am sorry and i wont do it again and i truly wont and i want to be the guy that she deserves a trusty guy and loving guy i do support her and my son wich yes is my job bu its so hard being away but i love my job and what i fight for and keep my country safe. help good advice not criticism please